I have officially put the scale away. That does not mean that I'm stopping fasting. It simply means that I keep failing and am changing absolutely everything I can think of around to help me manage each day successfully.
Today is, once again, Day One. I am going to assume my weight to be 114.0 pounds, though I haven't weighed myself since I was 112.8 (that was before I consumed so damn much). For every day that I fast, I will subtract one pound by the end of the day... so by tonight I might just be 113.0 if I succeed.
I have my MRI in under three hours.
-Run With Me
p.s. Scale = Gone, Day One Again, Presumed Weight = 114.0
Showing posts with label Day One. Show all posts
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Friday, June 04, 2010
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Day One
I'm so extremely fucking tired right now. But it is Day One. I am starting off at 113.0 pounds because of my fuck-up last night. But I can handle that.
I won't say how long this fast is supposed to go because that isn't a concrete idea in my head, plus, I don't want to "jinx it" I should check the time difference between here and Germany so that I know when I can try to contact T... I don't know how terrible the fees will be for that, though.
I don't know what I'm going to do with my life and it's driving me nuts. I have no drive because I don't know what to be driving toward. But I feel closer to figuring that out somehow. I don't know how that works, but I feel closer anyway. We'll see how it plays itself out.
I don't have much else to say at the moment other than that I'm heading out to the Doctor in a couple of hours to give them my entire list of damned symptoms of "something" and get a referral to a neurologist who will hopefully be taking pictures of my completely healthy brain and telling me conclusively that I do not have Multiple Sclerosis.
-Run With Me
p.s. 113.0 pounds
I won't say how long this fast is supposed to go because that isn't a concrete idea in my head, plus, I don't want to "jinx it" I should check the time difference between here and Germany so that I know when I can try to contact T... I don't know how terrible the fees will be for that, though.
I don't know what I'm going to do with my life and it's driving me nuts. I have no drive because I don't know what to be driving toward. But I feel closer to figuring that out somehow. I don't know how that works, but I feel closer anyway. We'll see how it plays itself out.
I don't have much else to say at the moment other than that I'm heading out to the Doctor in a couple of hours to give them my entire list of damned symptoms of "something" and get a referral to a neurologist who will hopefully be taking pictures of my completely healthy brain and telling me conclusively that I do not have Multiple Sclerosis.
-Run With Me
p.s. 113.0 pounds
