I am very tired right now. Like my lungs are still sleeping, so they aren't functioning at full power, yet I'm moving around which is taxing their ability to function properly. I wonder what that is caused by? It has been coming on for the last couple of days, that my lungs will still be working as though I am sleeping, but it usually lasts only a few hours or goes away once I smoke. I've smoked and it's been awhile, but they are still functioning sub-par.
Today is Day Two, again. And I woke up feeling really weak from not having eaten for two days. That weakness usually goes away after about day three or four, so I know I just have to wait it out.
I will be successful today for two reasons: I want to be successful, and I have no food here and the buses aren't running over the weekend so I can't go downtown to get any.
I feel exhausted enough to go back to sleep, even though it is early. But I tried, for a minute or so, and realized that I could lay there, but not actually be able to fall asleep. So, oh well on that score.
I had my MRI, but it will probably come out to be normal. I don't know what to make of that assumption, because if it does, it means I probably don't have anything fatal. But if it does, then I don't have an answer to what my medical issue is... I don't know what the next step is after an MRI.
Today, my assumed weight is 113.0... and tonight, my assumed weight will be 112.0 if I do not consume anything other than water.
I may be overestimating my weight loss, but I may also be underestimating it. I have lost quite a lot in a short span of time before. So when I eventually do weigh myself, I will probably not be "on target" but either lower or higher than I am assuming. But that is okay. I won't let that disappoint me into eating.
-Run With Me
p.s. Assumed weight, 113.0
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Saturday, June 05, 2010
Thursday, June 03, 2010
Day Two
I am 112.8 pounds right now and I think my scale may be a little bit cheap. It will stay at the same weight for a long time and then jump me down by an entire pound in an instant. I think it waits until there is a certain amount of weight loss and then decides to show that weight. I don't know how it works. I almost don't even care.
I am working on a great story. I hope to serialize it and sell it to some magazine or something that will pay me for my work. I don't know if that will work out or not, but it is worth looking around on line for a few hours in hopes of finding someone/thing/place that will publish serialized works.
I went to the DOT, but had no luck. So I'm coming up with a completely different plan. On another note, I have my MRI tomorrow at 4:15 at the hospital here and I am hoping that it comes up completely fine/perfect/clean. I don't know what else I will do tomorrow? I haven't really thought this whole plan through. I do know, though, that I will get through this Day Two without any mishaps. I feel like I can do it... It all comes down to what happens when I try to go to sleep hungry. That is what has caused me to fail so many days in a row so far. But I feel confident.
More later,
-Run With Me
p.s. 112.8 pounds
I am working on a great story. I hope to serialize it and sell it to some magazine or something that will pay me for my work. I don't know if that will work out or not, but it is worth looking around on line for a few hours in hopes of finding someone/thing/place that will publish serialized works.
I went to the DOT, but had no luck. So I'm coming up with a completely different plan. On another note, I have my MRI tomorrow at 4:15 at the hospital here and I am hoping that it comes up completely fine/perfect/clean. I don't know what else I will do tomorrow? I haven't really thought this whole plan through. I do know, though, that I will get through this Day Two without any mishaps. I feel like I can do it... It all comes down to what happens when I try to go to sleep hungry. That is what has caused me to fail so many days in a row so far. But I feel confident.
More later,
-Run With Me
p.s. 112.8 pounds
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Day One
I'm so extremely fucking tired right now. But it is Day One. I am starting off at 113.0 pounds because of my fuck-up last night. But I can handle that.
I won't say how long this fast is supposed to go because that isn't a concrete idea in my head, plus, I don't want to "jinx it" I should check the time difference between here and Germany so that I know when I can try to contact T... I don't know how terrible the fees will be for that, though.
I don't know what I'm going to do with my life and it's driving me nuts. I have no drive because I don't know what to be driving toward. But I feel closer to figuring that out somehow. I don't know how that works, but I feel closer anyway. We'll see how it plays itself out.
I don't have much else to say at the moment other than that I'm heading out to the Doctor in a couple of hours to give them my entire list of damned symptoms of "something" and get a referral to a neurologist who will hopefully be taking pictures of my completely healthy brain and telling me conclusively that I do not have Multiple Sclerosis.
-Run With Me
p.s. 113.0 pounds
I won't say how long this fast is supposed to go because that isn't a concrete idea in my head, plus, I don't want to "jinx it" I should check the time difference between here and Germany so that I know when I can try to contact T... I don't know how terrible the fees will be for that, though.
I don't know what I'm going to do with my life and it's driving me nuts. I have no drive because I don't know what to be driving toward. But I feel closer to figuring that out somehow. I don't know how that works, but I feel closer anyway. We'll see how it plays itself out.
I don't have much else to say at the moment other than that I'm heading out to the Doctor in a couple of hours to give them my entire list of damned symptoms of "something" and get a referral to a neurologist who will hopefully be taking pictures of my completely healthy brain and telling me conclusively that I do not have Multiple Sclerosis.
-Run With Me
p.s. 113.0 pounds
