Difficulties exist to be surmounted - Ralph Waldo Emerson

There's quite a bit happening around me, amongst my friends who are shutting me out because they are so wrapped up in their own drama. I know that I could help, but they won't let me in to spread a little perspective and logic around. Oh well. I guess I really don't need to get into it anyway. It isn't worth it sometimes to put myself out like that. But if any of them call me up tonight, you better believe I'll be jumping in and trying to do the best I can for them all.

If there must be trouble, let it be in my day, that my child may know peace. - Thomas Paine

I don't really know what to write at the moment. I have a few new developments, but none of them really matter. Among them, I now weigh 112.6 pounds. I have taken my telltale tea as well, even though I have nothing in my stomach. I have successfully not eaten for just about two days. I think. I've gotten confused somewhere along the line. I can't remember quite when I started my fast... I'll have to look back over the posts. I'm so distracted by the shitstorms that are happening just beyond my reach.

I should probably go to sleep soon. I know it's only 9pm, but I still feel the need to get some rest. It's been very hectic here. I will revel in the day that classes start up again and I can get some of this shit out of my brain and some of the boredom off of my back and just focus on one thing - college...

Good luck in all your endeavors,

-Run With Me

p.s. 112.6 pounds tonight.

Today will be the start of my first ten days. Yesterday, I fasted successfully, but this morning from 12am to 1:30pm I consumed. The second day always holds me by the hair and beats me with a club of nails. I need to figure out how to stop that from happening again. I will be doing my research and racking my brain to figure myself out enough to fast the way I used to. The longest fast I ever did got me to 98 pounds after 15 days. It was meant to be a 16 day fast but I started to have some medical difficulties so I stopped.

I have literally two nickels to rub together right now. That should help me not to be able to eat. I do have a little bit of consumables here in my home... dried cherries... peanut butter - those are the things I failed on last night. Got me from the 115.4 pounds that I had reached by nighttime to the 116.2 that I woke up as.

I'm going to start my fast as of 2:30pm today, so that I have a midday start time and a midday end time. I am also doing it this way because I woke up about half an hour ago and I don't think I should count the time that I was sleeping.

I'm making some telltale tea - that's what I'll call it because it's a horror story on my digestive system - and drink that, let it have it's horrific effects on my body, and then go to meet up with my friends for an evening party that we decided to have before the school year ever ended.

I'm going to do my research and soul-searching now. I will post my results when I have some.

-Run With Me

p.s. I guess I lied that this wasn't going to be weight-obsessed... but it shouldn't always be that way. We'll see.
116.2 pounds