Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Subdue your appetites, my dears, and you have conquered human nature.
-charles dickens

Life is complicated. I want to enumerate on here a promise I made to a friend, who may someday read this blog. I want her to be reassured that I meant what I told her. So, to T. I do plan on fasting for three sets of ten days, however, there is a huge caveat to this decision. If I start to feel as though anything is going wrong - medically - I will stop fasting. I will eat, no matter how uncomfortable that makes me or how much I really don't want to. T is dealing with an incredible amount of shit that keeps piling and piling up. The last thing I want to do is add any more worry or pain to that load. So I won't. To the best of my abilities, I wont.

On another note, I woke up at 113.6 pounds this morning (11:30am). I don't have any urge to consume anything at the moment. That is a blessing, seeing as this is day two, that wretched day I haven't been able to get my ass over for the last 6 or so days of attempted fasting. I've gotten through day one and failed on day two, it's been like a black-and-white-tiled floor, one colored tile after the other, for those six days. That's an annoying fact and I don't want to repeat the pattern today. I need to succeed - for my own sanity.

I hope nobody minds, but I want to put some pictures on this blog - in this post. I'm going to try to figure out how to do it so that they are covered for the casual viewer and then I will add them. To warn you, they will very likely be of food. I'm having an incredible fascination with the most beautiful types of foods and things lately. I may also include some small photos of things that made me smile in the last couple of days.

-Run With Me

Frozen Bananas blended with water and vanilla to make a delicious, healthy Ice Cream!

Lemon Cupcakes With Lavendar-Infused Lavendar-colored Frosting...

Coffee cake layered with gateau, coffee beans in a saucer, cup of coffee, chocolate/espresso candies topping the cake... delicious.

p.s. 113.6 pounds, just to keep count down here in case this is the only part you are looking at. I have no idea how I'm losing this much weight this fast. But I won't question it. Absolutely not. =D